I swear, I have the suckiest life ever. And I just have the WORST attachment issues. As if it’s not enough that I overthink myself all the time already…

I think I will be one of those scary, clingy, super jealous girlfriends. Oh, who am I kidding. -___-

Jumbled thoughts. I need to work on my EQ big time. Plus, I need to figure out the whole effing deal with college classes. I honestly do NOT want to do anything over the summer. Maybe I’ll trick my mom into letting me undertake self-study or whatever….

Or play lots of piano.

I need to take up some hobbies. Something that takes time and that can be potentially beneficial to me.

I am good at coming with analogies, but am currently at a loss. Something hurts for five minutes, then you’re fine. Then you tell yourself next time it will be all fine. Except it’s not…. it’s just a wound that never heals.

I like to pick at my scabs. Bad habit. I know the best way is to leave the wound alone and let the cells do their job. Easier said than done though….

I know I should be setting my eyes farther into the future instead of looking into immediate scenarios. But I just let my feelings get to the better of me. Transitions take time… I just don’t know how much to give myself.

I’ll never get anywhere with all this crap. I love going in cycles, wasting all my energy. Maybe, one day I’ll just flat out ask him. I think I can take a rejection. Playing the guessing game is exhausting.